Subject : Rain

So I was over at my Grandparents place from late Sunday till Monday evening. We were planning to have ourselves a bonfire but it didn't workout. The one event that prevents families and friends from enjoying a nice fire outside, roasting marshmallows, making smores, simply playing with the fire itself is of Course a Thunderstorm. Looking at the clouds above us we were convinced that Sunday night was not a good night for being outside, wind was picking up, clouds were black, and hung real low as to intimidate us with its immense size. And as everyone was heading inside I noticed something, something in the air, it was a smell, a smell of something extremely original, something we have not yet been able to duplicate in any form, it was the Smell of Rain. There is something about that scent that is uplifting to me, the scent that the "Forest" at my Grandparents place gives off is simply Heavenly. I could honestly feel something inside myself pushing me to go outside and walk in the darkness amongst the trees only to take in the smell of something so freeing to me. This whole blog is weird, and I think it makes me sound like a little fairy boy, but I simply don't care. I wonder if the Bible talks about the smell of Rain, and maybe God's intentions for it, that would be awesome. I'd like to know if something as this has the power in it to free people from certain sins in there life, to bring a sense of peace to the mind and soul. I do find peace in Rain, I enjoy how we can go with a week of amazing weather and then at the end give the sky its time to cry, its time to unleash on us its worries. We all know that when a Thunderstorm comes in we hope it will speak for us, that the black sky of clouds and noise and bolts of light will maybe free us of our own chaos inside ourselves. (don't look at me like you don't know what I'm talkin 'bout). It's ok though. The image I have in my head is so simple. The Sky cries, lets it all out, and when its all done, the grass is greener then it was before, there is more of it, the smell is richer and fuller and pure. Pure being the biggest one for me, its pure, there are no impurities in the smell of natural rain covering the trees of a forest or park. If I had my way I'd be walking around in the woods, lost, but content in what I'm doing, how I feel...Till I got hungry, but still. I'm not the only one who enjoys this, I know a few peeps that love it as well. And I figure, Jesus loves Rain, it draws our attention to his higher place. He Rains on us. This to me is a smell that all the crack-heads, meth addicts, and people hooked on death should completely wrap themselves into, they can take as much as they'd like. I figure I've been quiet for a while, but I'm still here.

Inside Wants Out Part II.

Hi,

So I felt like typing some stuff tonight. There is this person that I always tell " I have nothing to blog about " and every time I say that I end up blogging something.

So I think its funny that Our Hearts which in its physical form is a pump. "A pump you say?" Yes a pump, just like a pump that pumps water or air, ours pumps blood through our bodies. It's true, our most important physcial/biological mechanism is a pump and if not treated properly will cause us to plainly die. Yup it's true. But why did God have a different plan for this wee little pump ? Our hearts not only have physical issues but emotional issues, and one biggy, Spiritual Issues. So in my mind this kind of sucks, the one muscle that (if ever stopped) would kill you and yet it is open to attack on two more different battle fields. I'm glad for one thing that God allows us to feel, it lets us know we aren't so cold hearted just yet, its Conviction or Guilt, (whichever floats your boat). These feelings cause us to box ourselves in, try to find whats wrong, and shut it down. But sometimes we never do shut it down, sometimes we can't without the right tools. This is where Jesus comes in, he's the fix it guy, the handy man that I let freely come into my "hearts house" to fix whatever problem has arised. The hardest parts are when he begins his work, the noise, the frustration, the annoyance of all the things he's moving around, throwing out, or putting in order. It kind of..hurts. But to understand that had you ignored the problem, your heart would have been a mess, pipes leaking everywhere, holes in the walls, and you would have been more exposed and damaged, then without his banging around in there. I pray that all of us feel conviction in our lives, only for you to meet the handy man that can fix any problem no matter how big, or small, or wide or long or expensive. Cuz the bill that I recieved didn't have any numbers on it, it had words, and it read " You know who I am, You know what I do, Call me anytime 24 hours a day 7 days a week, even if you just want to talk" I understood that. As I pray you do.

I Thank You.

c-Hype

Authors Note: I feel like I have something to blog and so I'm going to, it needs to come out of me. I feel like I'm stepping out into the light a bit only to show something you might disagree with. But the funny thing is...I don't care what you think...but I do care on what you have to say.



Well this evening as the clouds rolled in I went for a walk with my mother, it was a nice walk, a pleasent walk. My mother and I usually have really good Conversations about God, or whatever it is we choose to discuss as we walk. I brought up the previous youth leaders meeting we had at church on Tuesday. I'm going to flat out say that I felt uncomfortable, I thought all the leaders were acting strangley to one another, not mean, but not positive either. I also felt that our Youth Pastor was acting horribley stupid, by saying weird things and making weird comments. My thinking is he was trying to be funny, trying to make people laugh but he failed at that Oh Boy did he ever, at least in my eyes. Now I guess they want to change the way the style of the program is setup, I think what they want to do is stupid and it won't work, but I'm glad they are trying, and thinking of what they can do, and that they're making it happen. This is all "whatever" with me but then Pastor "_____" starts saying " C'mon guys we need souls, think souls, we need to start really saving souls". This is where I draw the line. What about souls ? What about throwing a Jesus Ball into their faces ? I don't like the mentallity of (almost literally) throwing ourselves onto a person just to believe in God, get their "soul" saved. There are reasons people look the other way, there are reasons people say that "Christians are pushy" I don't know about yall but I myself am not into PowerDriving a church concept of God into someones life that simply won't take it. Of course God is good for us..infact GREAT for us, no doubt in my mind. But to honestly act like a Jesus crazed moron, running our mouth at every person/chance that comes our way, not even realizing what we're saying to these people, Just does not sit well with me. I've always believed in planting the seed. " You can't force a tree to grow no matter how much water or sun you give it, it will take its own time to do what it needs." There is a process people go through to discover things they will either Hate about themselves or Love about themselves, to find reason for existence. In this process they will make choices, they will come accross crazed Christians and they will think what they want, but I hope that a person questioning where he/she is can come across a Christian that isn't so nuts, but that is blunt, DOWN TO EARTH a person they can relate to, a person that wants to hear Why they don't want to believe, whats preventing a revelation of heart; basically somebody who will just plain Listen. We need not be psychos for God, just ourselves, we can be as unhinged and passionate to God as much as we choose to be, but when dealing with people that don't believe, that have lived complete opposite lives...Just listen to them, hear their heart, give them that seed, something whole, but small enough to put inside a thought, a thought that might circulate enough to change ones mind, to take risks. I bet even consideration for something heavenly gets Jesus all excited.


*Takes a Breath as if Speaking"


The other part that I can't stand is "Hype" and not just any Hype but " Christian Hype" yeah thats right we got Hype like its going out of frigin style. If you've ever been to YC in Edmonton then you'd know "c-Hype" <---(Gangster Slang) I love YC and I think its awsome, and amazing in soo many ways, but what I hate is the Hype that is built around it, its basically just a 3 day concert/program event filled with tons of shows by Christian artists and messages that are...good. I had a friend that wanted to become a Christian, he himself found a church to attend, had real good, strong friends in it, and made it mandatory that he attend all the time (this all took place in one weeks time.) He did love Jesus, he was always wanting to know more and more and more..and I almost ran out of stuff to tell him. It was awsome cuz on days that we'd slack off in Welding class the two of us would go into the far back of the room and I turn into a black gospel preacher. It was amazing for the both of us. But when my buddy came to YC he lost sight of everything he'd learned to love, instead he fell in love with the Bands that he saw playing, all the MERCHANDISE that the bands sell, and the "spectacle" that YC brings to its church going fans. All he did after YC was talk about how cool Toby Mac was, but when John started going back to church he got bored, uninterested, he'd tell me how much better YC was then church. All in all my good buddy John fell in love with the Hype of YC, the food, the laughter, the bands, the merchandise. I did all I felt I could do to have him hold on, but he just didn't see Jesus in the same light as he did before, and when he turned 18 even the Hype left him and he drove himself in the worlds core like a meteor. To me there is a "RAWness" to God, to the Bible, to Jesus. Something soo bitterly true that it can stop us dead in our tracks. But here we are making fancy light shows, and sugar coating everything, acting like little giddy school girl retards proclaming that Jesus ruined my life. Whatever happened to depth and realism? Cuz those people that bought into the HYPE of Christianity will have no foundation to build a lemonade stand on. The Only place we're going to find true rawness of the word...is the word itself and the Mouth Of Jesus, cuz he didn't sugar coat a damn thing.

These again are my opinions and thoughts, feel free to say what you will. I say good day.

Jordan.S